A bag of everything!

I am a bag of everything..

both the wonderful and the unpleasant..

but at the moment..






I am a bag of NERVES!


stay away! enough said!


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Between the lines...

I don't usually post lyrics to my blog or even notes on facebook..
Somehow this one caught my attention - thank you arathi. :)
and yes, things have been pretty hectic for me this past week and I foresee that in the future to come. haha... thanks to my loved ones especially my mum for getting this lazy bum bum of mine in motion! :) and yes those sms-es and long distance phone calls feels like a tub of ice cream.. haha

enjoy the below....

Time to tell me the truth
To burden your mouth for what you say
No pieces of paper in the way
'Cause I can't continue pretending to choose
The opposite sides on which we fall
The loving you laters, if at all
No right minds could wrong be this many times

My memory is cruel
I'm queen of attention-to-details
Defending intentions if he fails
Until now, he told me her name
It sounded familiar in a way
I could have sworn I'd heard him
Say it ten thousand times
If only I had been listening

Leave unsaid unspoken
Eyes wide shut unopened
You and me
Always between the lines

I thought I was ready to bleed
That we'd move from the shadows on the wall
And stand in the center of it all
Too late, two choices, to stay or to leave
Mine was so easy to uncover
He'd already left with the other
So I learned to listen through silence

Leave unsaid unspoken
Eyes wide shut unopened
You and me, always be...
You and me, always be...

I tell myself
All the words he surely meant to say
I'll talk until
The conversation doesn't stay on
"Wait for me, I'm almost ready,"
When he meant "Let go,"

Leave unsaid unspoken
Eyes wide shut unopened
You and me, always be...
You and me
Always between the lines

So little time and Overwhelmed!

So much to do.. so little time.. so many thoughts rushing in and out..
Self grip and self focus.. it's about time lisya , for you to get your ass in motion!! - yes i know those who love me will be nodding their head in unison to this one!! haha..

In the meantime, this tune seem to be stuck in my head and is going on a repeat mode. haha

May not be the most sophisticated melody and lyrics to date..
Still, it screams out simple and young!
It's easy to the ears and easy to the heart
Listening to this , funnily Life and Love feels simple all over again.. :)






favourite lines:
"A couple of years and I'm gonna know your name"

"You are so far away, maybe you're right next door"

"Baby if they asked me, I would say I don't even know your name "

How cute can that get!! :D

Gone

It's over Lisya..... It really is....
I woke up finding myself in a state of misery... It was the right thing to do. Yet, I feel so lost and hollow...

Lost and empty..
Missed and truly missed..
I know it's not coming back...
It's too late, it was all too little too late..

"We were meant to meet, but never to last" "It was real and nothing fake about it, but it was never meant to be kept"

I keep telling myself that, to just be able to live and brave each passing moment without the past... my beautiful mess is no more mine.... shaky but a girl's got to do what a girl's got to do...It's hard..

Good Morning..

The Want, Need and Unwanted list...

My need list hasn't changed for a bit. It has always been the same fundamentally and without a doubt, it is and forever will stay the same. I take pride on that one.

One list that I am not proud of is definitely my want list. A list of things that I want , when actually I don't need it. It is something that adds colour to your life but it doesn't really matter in substance. It's temporary! I don't do that either.

And at the moment I need to revise my want list. Half way through it and I have finally realized, half of them, needs to be converted into my unwanted list.

So, now this is the plan, to be able to achieve the unwanted list and to be able to just toss it out the window with no regrets. For, at times as now, that is me being at my prime, the want list is more like a destruction tool rather than a medium of driving me towards my goal. My goal is to achieve those things that I need!


Patience goes a long way and self control adds icing to the cake. I have both of these. Evidently, it had benefited me in many ways. Especially the latter.

So here's the deal metaphorically:

I am leaving the gapis alone in their on little world, and I now do sharks, and on better days I might just do whales!

I am at my prime, and I deserve only the best. No two ways about it. That's just it!

2012 is nearing, all the more reason I should focus on my needs. :)


and yes that's a promise that I have made to myself and to the people I love and loves me in return. I shall not let you down this time....... :)


note: picture taken from http://stumbleupon.com/ and metaphorical phrases was inspired by my dearest Arathi at 3 am!! Now now, at least something good happens after 2am. :)

The Wedding Galore!- I did?

From Klang to Melawati to Shah Alam and to Subang Jaya! I had a blast feasting my eyes with the beautiful decorations, ornaments and yes the beautiful bride and groom and also the beautiful guests.. Heavenly despite the fact that I could have had a heat stroke! Honestly, global warming isn't funny and we should really start going back to basics. (Heads up to all acquaintances, Lisya Ramly is definitely having her wedding during the night :P)

I have had always been an ardent fan of weddings. What's there not to love about? It's a noble act of establishing a matrimonial bliss. Weddings are happy occasions and definitely a starting point for he and she to embark on a beautiful also a bittersweet journey together. For me at this moment I guess I am just in love with the works of a wedding. The hantarans, the invitation cards, the majestic Dias, " bunga rampai"the food , etc and oh wait the best has to be the conversations with the elders.

When you are like me that is you are blessed to be born to an elderly family, you find yourself mingling more with the elders rather than people of your age. (Apart from not knowing half of the gene bank of course )No complaints there. These old timers definitely have more wit and wisdom to boot than the Y-generation. Or is it that I am just OLD? hahaha

So below, is a conversation that I shall never forget:
(note: this Wan of mine speaks the Queen's english and the words below are all of her own saying )

Grand aunt: So, girl what are you doing at the moment?

Me: I am a fresh graduate Wan. Graduated in August. At the moment, I'm home preparing
myself for the next- big thing..

Grand Aunt: Hahahah, Ahh, fresh from the oven I reckon? So which glorious institution you
did proud my child?

Me: University of Malaya

Grand Aunt: Oh my!!! Impressive, what course did you do?

Me: Genetics and Molecular Biology

Grand Aunt: My, my whatever that is it does sure sounds intelligent and difficult! Now, now
isn't that a good combination with good looks and brains to boot. Any special
boy friend at the moment?

Me: No lah Wan... I guess I'm too intimidating for their liking...hahaha

Grand Aunt: Hahahah.. it just goes to show they are still boys, not man enough... Fret not,
don't be in a rush darling , selection is all yours. Take your time. Why settle for
good when you can have the best? (saying this with an almost toothless sly grin
and cheekiness in her eyes)

Me: Hahahahah ...( All I could do was chuckled, because honestly I wanted to laugh out really
hard.. she was so wicked!) :P

Grand Aunt: One more thing, if you do get serious with anyone.. kahwin je terus.. what's the
point of doing everything together before you are married in fact to
a point pretending as if you are a married couple before tying the knot.. such a
waste .. the magic will be there no more.... because instead of saying I
do you will be saying I did on your wedding day!

Me: Good one Wan! So True So very true!! hahaha



I did instead of I do? hahahaha

I'm hanging on to that phrase for life! hahah. Okay signing off now, I have another wedding obligation to meet with tonight! Let's get Glam now! :)

Who's counting anyways?

It has been two months since that day. Who's counting? Well, at least I am.

It gets harder everyday. That, I won't lie. However, a girl's got to do , what a girl's got to do right?

I don't write this with anger or hate neither regret. I am writing this with the same feeling I had a year ago..

Classicly naively me.

Stop!

It's 3 am and nothing good happens after 2 am. I for one, now believes in that.

Off to bed now, pip -pip!!

Truth is, it's after 2 am that you are able to be in touch with your inner feelings with no pretence. Unlike how it used to be, today and the days to come will be different. Instead of dwelling on it, I shall sleep it off and try hard not to dream about it.

Goodnight.


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